haiz...i wonderin hw come i give up my chance 2 b come nco 2 my mei...hw come? dere is 2choices i can choose, 1) go 4 ncc n report sick al e way or 2) don go @ al well, since it is alrdy over, i choose 2...bt, is it worth? wat if i really tat unlucky n cannt go 4 spec course? hw? will i 4eva in e ncc days b CPL? it will b something which i really do nt 1...tat rank discriminate me fro june onwards man!!! hweva, if it fated tat i mst wear tat rank, den i hv nt choice bt 2 wear it...haiz...

2day focused test, 4 e 1st time i take sci focused test, i m confident tat i can pass e test...cz e phy is simple enough tat i can appl wadever i hv learnt although i miss quite a lot of tat topic n 4 chem, well, chem al e while i hv been passin so no prob on tat...

jus nw nth 2 do, read e past msg of wat jie send me, some of e msg carry v.strong emotions tat really can make me =( while some brings back memories...wonderful memories...haiz, jie arh, i miss u sia...will dere b a time where dere is only me n u 2gether, talkin? will dere b this time? haiz, at e same time, i also don knw wat wrong w me, e moment i think of e past msg n my ncc matters, i suddenly feel tat i m NT FIT 2 take up any position which i m holdin nw...something tellin me tat since i m tat lously, y mst i take up tat position? might as well throw tat position 2 some1 else who is mre deservin...mayb every1 hv their limits? speakin abt limits, i really hv limits, if i think tat by goin 2 tat ncc activity is pushin me 2 much tat i cannt handle, i will drop it...i hv set my boundary, u 1 me 2 exceed tat boundary, can, provided tat i hv e abilities 2 do so otherwise, i m sry, u hv exceed my boundary, i can no longer control...

haiz...hw come 2day so many bad stuffs happen? is 2day a bad fri?