Sunday, March 02, 2008
if only i hv listen 2 wat God told me...if only i hv skip my tution lesson n went 4 2day service...
i did nt expected tat me n her will split up in2 diff cg...seriously, i did nt expect tat..i dot we alrdy break up, alrdy tat bloody f**kin sad le, no wonder u make it worst den wat i expected...yes, she mayb nt b sad, bt I M!!! n nw, i 1 2 CRY!!! hw come al de advice i heard so far is this "don let it affect ur spiritual life", "don think 2 much", "don bother it", wat de hell is this? i don give a f**kin darn of is it affectin my spiritual life a nt...seriously...2 think tat when we break up i cry tat hard, nw i cry even harder...2 think tat when we break up, my heart hurts, nw my heart hurts mre...2 think tat when we break up, my heart break into 1000pieces, nw it break in2 indefinete pieces!!! Y!!! Y R U DOIN THIS? i hv nt recover from my wounds yet n nw, u r APPLYIN salt on my wound!!! it feel very hurtin do u knw? VERY PAINFUL!!!!!!! i wanted 2 talk 2 some of my trusted friends nw, bt den NONE of them r de 1 i 1...1thing tat i hate abt christainity is tat hw come, hw come al de ppl who r closed 2 me seem 2 get further n further n further from me...y????? Y IS THIS HAPPENIN?
i jus cannt believed wat hv jus happen man...seriously...al i 1 is 2 c her, able 2 talk 2 her tat al, is it difficult?
P.S: nw tat we r 95% seperate, r u guys happy? do u feel tat statisfaction?
