Saturday, December 29, 2007
haiz...feel some hw empty sia...like i don hv any happiness in me...haiz...wat happen 2 me???? wat happen??? goin 2 b eoy le, hw come i still in this state? i should b lookin 4ward 2 nxt yr ma...sec3...long pants, promote 2 CPL, SGT, SSG or MSG de...get IC...y m i so sad nw? haiz...
dot of been a backslider @ de cg n service...reason being tat i some hw feel xtra...everybody dere is happy, always on de high mood except 4 me...feel like a black sheep inside...haiz...it is hard 2 tell them of wat i feel currently...they will surely say "don worry, jus go 4 it n naturally u will b :) de" ya...i try b4, it did nt fail me hweva, this time, i really DON WISH 2 go...cz when i go, i need 2 act happy in front of al u guys...it is VERY TORTURIN, DO U KNW? i don 1 u guys 2 worried abt me...need 2 act happy when needed...haiz...pls ppl, give me some time 2 consider...
lots of ppl also say hack care abt de past, let bygone b bygone...haiz...bt do u knw it is DIFFICULT 2 do tat? ya...u nvr try hw will u knw...prob is when i try 2 4get, it bring me back 2 de past which hurt me a lot!!! i wonder...does any1 here knw wat is heartbreak....haiz...
after we break, al i left is blood 2 drip 4 my tears hv shed finish n dried up...
Labels: where is de light of my life tat i used 2 hv?
