2day went 2 boon lay mrt station 2 meet with de rest of de cell group memeber with kj 2 go 2 expo 2gether 4 service...haiz, reach de station by 0800hrs bt den we only go 2 de train at 0830hrs...haiz, Amber loh, 1 2 wait T.T lol, jkjk de...

go in de train le, haiz, de ride approximate is 1hr...wa, 1hr sia, bt den in a blink of an eye, it is very fast...planned 2 slp while travellin bt den i fail 2...

reach expo dere 4 service le...haha, 2day service last 4 4hrs due 2 de mini concert which hold after de service..after tat, went 2 clake quay dere 4 prayer meetin...unfortuantely 4 me, i did nt attend as i don knw anything..wait 4 them 4 1hr..wa, so long sia..finally they finish le den went 2 de nearby mall dere 2 makan...haha, finally can makan le..bt den me makan dere nt full de...dot mum will cook 4 me cz she don knw me makan outside...den stay dere til 2100hrs+ den go hm le...haiz...when i reach hm, de result is nt wat i 1, de food is nt dere...haiz...den nvm loh, me makan tibits liao... T.T

tat is de some hw pleasant news, nw is de opposite...arghhhhh, recently very busy arh...hw come like this de? durin yesterday cell group, Amber told de whole group tat 2 reduce stress, 1 mst knw wat 2 do 1st n do tat 1 1st til it is fully accomplished...i attempt 2 folo wat she said hweva, it fail me....y???? 2day actually i plan 2 go service n makan with my cell group ppl de hw come another bkin comin up? yyyyyyyyyyyy? i did nt even expect my holi 2 b this flood...even if it is flood, it will flood in a way tat i need 2 go out 3consective weeks!!!! last week went out due 2 friends, cell group n service, this comin wk(2moro) n de wk after this is de same plan, ncc al de way, cell group meetin n service...arghhhhhhhhh, y???????? surely in betweenn this 2wks, ppl sure ask me out den i need 2 reject as de same out reason appear "y everytime accompany cell group n go 4 service, is it tat important?" cell group 2 me nw is like a gang of ppl who r TOTALLY DIFFERENT from any other gang i knw out dere in de society...n 4 service, i think it is de moment where i can get closer 2 god...

den de nxt 1 is tat hw come u don allow me 2 hold ur hands? i muster a lot, a lot of courage 2 hold ur hand n u jus shove it away...hw come like this de? r we steadin a nt? U TELL ME!!! i tryin 2 take de 1st step so tat our relationship can grow bt no wonder nt...y??? jus tell me, do u like, no, love me? i alrdy say my piece tat time under de pressense of panda le so meanin at least 2ppl heard wat i said...so nw it is up 2 u le...pls tell me... ... ...

this is de end of my post le...haiz, 2moro still gt shootin practice...wat de...haiz, god, when can i hv a rest? i jus 1 a day off from activity n stay @ hm 2 slp...pls god...pls...haiz...

P.S: i really love u man...

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