Saturday, April 07, 2007
only 1day after 'gd friday' n i alrdy reflect al de things i hv done with her...
mayb i should 4get abt her since she don even give a darn of me, or mayb it is de otherwise, think abt her until my wish come true?
bt, de more i think, more blood will b spill out from my heart...de more i think, de more i get arrogant...de more i think, de more my friend loathe me as i hv attitbue prob...de more i think, i might even get 2 study Amaths n pure sci...y...y u appear in my life? or should i blame myself? y should i step my foot 2 JWSS? i should hv put BLSS n accompany my best friend dere...y...n when i c u, i fall in love in u...from sec1 'til nw, u hv been rejectin my love 4 abt 3times, 3times my heart is been drill a hole by u...imagie hw hard it is 2 c u every sec, min, hr n every sch day when u alrdy rejected me a lot of times?
i keep on thinkin last yr u tried 2 accompany me when we were havin self-study jus b cz u scare i will b come angry...keep on thinkin tat u saved me at de mac dere when i was been threathen even though ur stead was dere...keep on thinkin tat u care 4 me cz u ask me 4 my maths test result...keep on thinkin tat we can b close 2gether, can hv fun 2gether...al this thing, keep my mind thinkin abt u although a lot of ppl i met 1 me 2 4get abt u in order 2 live my life a :) 1 instead of a souless life...
bt i knw, i cannt jus 4get her like this, wat if she ask me 2 go out 4 self-study n who knws, she might fall in love in me? however, 2 ppl who r around me will thinkin otherwise, dey will say 'don go, let her b dere n let her feel wat is de taste of been abandon, also, y should u go? is she ur owner which in terms make u her dog? n y is she treatin like a piece of meat? she 1 u, she 'buy' u, she don 1, she jus throw u aside n let de rest of de 'dogs' feed on u?'
nw, my heart is half-filled with blood, when al de blood hv been drain out, i might nt hv feelin 4 others le...wat i say might b something which is very curel 2 hear, wat i say might affect ur life, wat i say u might nt 1 2 hear it, wat i say u might hate me 4eva n b come enemies...i really hope tat de gal will change her mind soon so tat she can fill my heart with blood once more....
P.S: drip drip drip...ouch, it hurts u knw?
