[i jus lost some1...]

this mornin wake up, hoppin tat u will b fine bt no wonder nt...c ur blog, tagboard, msn nick n i knw tat u stil nt fine yet...

den i went out 2 eat with kj, told him hw i feel...hw i wish i can T.T sia...really, feel darn bloody :( sia...4 some1 i like 2 b so :( when she found her Mr Right...bt under de pressence of him, i dare nt 2 T.T in case he laugh of me or watsoever...even my god-mei, pauline also found something wrong with me...everytime durin tution lesson i wil make some noise de bt 2day i did nt make...man, jus wish i could play badminton sia, 1 2 smash de wall, de floor, de net, de player...smash anything which gets in2 my way...bt i doubt so as 2day is a 'bad friday'...

later might b goin joggin...wonder wat is de speed of my joggin...will it increase, remain or drop? or will i T.T will joggin? i really cannt take it le...de scar she left on me is so deep such tat it could keep me mute, keep my mood down...kj, will u mind if i T.T while joggin? will u mind de sudden change of my behaviour n attitube? will u mind tat i will suddenly shout on u without any valid reason? will u mind tat i smash u? n lastly, will u kill me if i done any of de above?

de 1st time i so deeply in love such tat when i c her go with others make me heart break n T.T...some ppl will say 4get abt u bt it is nt EASY!!! if it is AS EASY AS ABC, den i can stead with a lot of gals liao!!! if it is tat easy, den hw come i will T.T? if u don believe, try it out lah!!! some say wait loh...yes, i will wait bt those who 1 me 2 4get her will say it will cause me more hurt den i alrdy hv...well, does it matter nw? de more hurt i m, de better cz i can die eariler...or rather, de more hurt i m, i can b come more disciplined...

well, jus hope de guy will accept her love n she will b :)